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35

Where are you going, Comrade Morozova?

Sofia had risen to her feet in the conference hall. She couldnt bear it inside this hothouse of lies and paranoia a moment longer. All the promises of quotas impossible to achieve, and the incessant ranting against wreckers and saboteurs it set off a griping pain in her stomach, as though rats were chewing in there.

Alanya Sirovas expression was poised halfway between curiosity and suspicion. Are you leaving?

Da. Yes, I have work to do.

But I thought-

While Comrade Direktor Pashin and Comrade Boriskin are away reporting to the Committee, Sofia tossed her pad and pen on the lap of Alanyas navy blue suit, I want you to take notes of everything that goes on here.

The secretarys cheeks glowed pink with pleasure. Spasibo, comrade. I wont let you down, I promise.

It made Sofia want to cry.


The streets of Leningrad had changed. As Sofia walked their pavements she began to wish she hadnt come back. The tall pastel-painted houses with ornate window frames and wrought iron balconies, houses she had once thought so smart and elegant, had been transformed into sooty drab buildings crammed full of sooty drab people who scurried to the bread queues and the candle queues and the kerosene queues, where they waited for hours like sheep in a slaughter house. Their clothes were shabby and their chins tucked tight to their chests. Against the cool breeze that skimmed off the canals? Or against the expression in other peoples eyes? Suspicion was so strong in the air, she could smell it.

As she hurried down Nevsky the trams rattled past her, packed with grey empty faces. The new factories pumped a thick filth into the air that settled like widows weeds over the buildings. When Sofia leaned eagerly over the bridge, as she had as a child to catch sight of the Fontanka, the stench that drifted up from it caught at her throat and made her eyes water. What were they dumping in there?

She was here to search out the apartment where Anna had lived briefly with Maria and Irina, but had no exact address to go on. She walked fast along the bank of the Neva, over the little humpback Gorbatiy Mostik and then turned left across Liteiny Bridge. Once in the Liteiny district she set about combing the spiders web of streets with their dismal tenements, but it took her an hour to find it. The tap factory. It was still there.

What else had Anna told her?

An iron staircase. A kolodets and a lions head carved above an arch. But the dark rows of crumbling tenements all seemed to have iron staircases to the upper storeys and courtyards where ragged children crawled among the woodpiles. It was only when she spotted the lions head above one of the arches that Annas voice pulsed in her ears. You must remember this, Sofia. It will help you. She walked the street twice just to make sure no other lions were lurking nearby, and then approached the entrance. It was like all the others: no paint, with cracked and swollen woodwork. She lifted the big knocker and rapped it.


A womans wrinkled face peered round the door.

Yes?

Im looking for Maria Myskova. I believe she may live here.

Who wants to know?

The woman was wrapped in a thick woollen headscarf, despite the heat of the day, and wore a dark brown blanket draped around her shoulders. In the gloomy hallway her head appeared disembodied. Her eyebrows were drawn together above what was clearly a glass eye, but her other brown eye was bright and intensely curious.

Who are you, girl? she demanded, holding out a hand for identification papers.

Sofia stood her ground without giving her name. Maria used to live here with Comrade Sergei Myskov and his wife and child. On the first floor. Do you know where they are now?

At work.

You mean they still live here? When will they be home?

Who wants to know? The womans eye gleamed.

Are you the dezhurnaya?

Da. Yes, I am. She unwrapped the blanket enough to reveal an official red armband.

Everyone knew that caretakers were paid informers of the State Police, keeping a watchful eye on the comings and goings of their buildings inhabitants for OGPU. The last thing Sofia wanted was to rouse those wasps from their nest.

Ill come back later if youll tell me when they-

The crash of a piece of crockery followed by a mans voice raised in a curse erupted from somewhere at the back of the hallway. The woman swivelled round with a squeal and scurried back into the shadows towards a door that was half open. Sofia didnt hesitate. She stepped inside and leapt up the stairs two at a time, trying not to inhale the smell of boiled cabbage and unwashed bodies that seemed to breathe out of the fabric of the building. It brought the stink of the barrack hut at Davinsky Camp crashing into her head.

When she reached the first-floor landing she turned to her left, where a boarded window let in a few dim streaks of light. To her surprise, packed tight against the wall of the dingy corridor, were three beds, low and narrow. One was tidily made with a folded quilt, the second was a jumble of stained sheets and the third was occupied by a bald man stinking of vomit whose skin was yellow as butter. This was Sofias first experience of the communalka, the shared apartments where several families were crammed into the space that had once belonged to only one.

She squeezed past the first two and spoke in a whisper to the man in the third.

Do you need anything?

It was a stupid question. Of course the poor wretch needed something something like a decent bed in a decent hospital with decent food and medicines and clean air to breathe, but he didnt reply. His eyes were closed. Maybe he was dead. She felt she should tell somebody. But who? On tiptoes, so as not to wake him, she crept to the door at the end of the landing and knocked quickly. The door opened at once. A dark-haired woman stood in front of her, shorter than herself but broad across the bust. Sofia smiled at her.

Dobriy vecher, she said. Good evening. I am Anna Fedorina.


Shes dead. Maria died two years ago. Another stroke.

The words were stark, but Irina Myskova spoke them gently.

Im sorry, Anna, I know how much she cared for you. Its so sad that she didnt live to see you released.

Tell Sasha that.

The womans face stiffened at the mention of her son. His part in Annas arrest seemed to sit uneasily in Irinas heart and she ran a hand across her large bosom, stilling whatever turmoil simmered there. Her clothes were neat but old, the material of her skirt darned in several places. The apartment was the same, clean and tidy with striped homemade poloviki rugs on the floor. Everything looked old and well used. Only the white plaster bust of Lenin gleamed new, and the bright red posters declaring Forward towards the Victory of Communism and We swear, Comrade Lenin, to honour your command. Sofia ignored them and looked across at the chair by the window. It was Marias chair, standing empty now, clearly not used by the family any more.

Sasha was only doing his duty, Irina insisted loyally.

Sofia hadnt come here to argue. Those times were hard and

But youre looking well, Anna, Irina interrupted. She eyed Sofias new dress and her shining blonde hair thoughtfully. You were pretty as a child, but now youve grown quite beautiful.

Spasibo. Comrade Myskova, is there something of Marias I could have? To remind me of her?

Irinas face relaxed. Of course. Most of her possessions have gone Sold, she added self-consciously. But Sergei insisted on keeping a few things back. She walked over to a cupboard and drew from it a book. Its Marias bible. She offered it to Sofia. Maria would have wanted you to have it, Anna.

Thank you.

Sofia was touched by the gift. The feel of the book under her fingers, its pages so soft and well thumbed, raised a sudden sense of her own childhood and her own fathers devotion to bible study. She handled it with care.

Thank you, she murmured again and moved towards the door.

Wait, Anna. Irina came over and stood close.

What is it? Sofia felt an odd rush of sympathy for this woman, caught between her love for her son and her love for her husbands dead sister. Gently she said, Whats done is done, Irina. We can change the future but we cant change the past.

Nyet. And I wouldnt wish to. But if I can help you I know from Maria that you were always fond of the Dyuzheyevs boy.

Vasily?

Did Maria tell you he came here once? Hes going under a different name now.

Yes. Mikhail Pashin. She said he came twice.

I wasnt here, but I believe it was only once. Maria got confused sometimes. The other time it was a different man altogether who came to see her.

Do you know who?

Anna, I think you should know that the man had come trying to find you.

Me?

Da. It seems he was the young Bolshevik soldier, the one who shot your father and Vasilys mother. He was searching for you.

Sofias heart seemed to hang loose in her chest. Who was he?

Thats the odd thing. He said hed been sent to work in a village in the Urals.

His name?

Maria wasnt any good at remembering, but she told Sasha the name and he remembered it.

What was it? She held her breath, and a sense of foreboding chilled her, despite the heat in the apartment.

Fomenko. Aleksei Fomenko.


Mikhail didnt sleep. The journey home was hard with no overnight stops. They slept sitting upright in their seats as the train ploughed its way through the darkness, its lonely whistle startling the wolves as they prowled the forests. Rain fell spasmodically, pattering against the black windows like unseen fingers asking to be let in.

Mikhail quietly smoked one cigarette after another and tried not to move too much in his seat. Sofias pale head lay on one shoulder, Alanyas dark one on the other. He didnt much care to be used as a pillow by the secretary and knew she would be embarrassed if she realised. Why Boriskin and Alanya had swapped seats he wasnt sure, but he suspected it had something to do with the dressing down hed given his foreman for declaring too accurate a picture of the labour problems at the factory.

His foreman had let him down badly. What was the point of bemoaning the lack of a skilled workforce in a peasant community when even a cabbage-head like Boriskin knew that such complaints would lose them important orders? And, more crucially, lose them the vital supply of raw materials. God knows, there was enough friction at the conference without adding to it needlessly. That was the trouble with some of these blasted jumped-up union men, they had no idea how to-

He stopped himself. Hed have to deal with Boriskins idiocy or was it wilful incompetence intended to make Mikhail himself look bad? back in the office. Not tonight. Tonight hed had enough. Instead he brushed his cheek across the soft silk of Sofias hair and marvelled that even with the stink of his own cigarettes and a fat cigar smouldering with the man in the seat opposite, her hair still smelled fresh and sweet. Its fragrance reminded him of bubbling river water. He listened for her breathing but could hear nothing above the thunder of the wheels beneath him.

His own part in the conference had gone smoothly. The report hed delivered to the Committee had been well received it could hardly be otherwise, considering the production figures he was presenting to the hatchet-faced bastards and his speech to the delegates in the hall had been suitably dull and steeped in boring numbers. No one had listened but everyone had applauded and congratulated him at the end. Thats the way it worked. You protect my back, Ill protect yours. Mikhail took a long frustrated drag on his cigarette. No, he couldnt complain about the conference. It was the rest of it that disturbed him on a much deeper level. The way Alanya attached herself to Sofia and stuck tight as a tick to her side so it was impossible for him to make time alone with Sofia. And then there was the small matter of her disappearance.

Damn it. Where did she go?

It was late in the evening before she returned, and to explain her absence hed made up some claptrap about her attending a dinner with the members of the Party elite. But that had backfired because, when she reappeared, Alanya and bloody Boriskin had both fussed over her like mother hens and asked who had been at the dinner and what theyd had to eat. He chuckled to himself at the memory. Sofia had handled it brilliantly. Shed given Mikhail that slow mischievous smile of hers, then put a finger to her lips as she shook her head at Alanya.

No details, Comrade Sirova. Wait till you are invited to such an event, then you will learn for yourself.

Of course, comrade. Youre right.

Boriskin nodded pompously and Mikhail had to fight to keep a straight face, but nothing was the same after that. In some indefinable way, she withdrew into herself. Oh yes, she still slid him secret smiles and brushed her shoulder against his jacket, or let her fingers entwine with his when no one was looking. But it wasnt the same. And on several occasions he caught her gazing at him, when she thought he wouldnt notice, with an expression in her eyes that frightened him. It was as if a light had been turned off. Something dark had crept in in its place.

What had happened to her during those missing hours?

He eased Alanya off his shoulder and back on to her own headrest, then turned and gently kissed the top of Sofias head.

Stay, my love, stay with me, he whispered.

He stroked her hand, running his thumb over the tight white scars, lifting them to his lips. As he kissed them, her fingers came to life and curled round his jaw, their tips stroking him, sending a fierce heat rippling through his body.

Mikhail, she whispered, kiss me.

While the rest of the carriage slept, he took her beautiful face in his hands and kissed each delicate part of it, her eyes, her nose, her cool forehead, the sweep of her chin, even the sweet tips of her pearly ears. She uttered a soft little whimper. Finally he kissed her lips and tasted her. And knew it was a taste he could never give up.


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